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i'm still trying to figure it out... prepare for a new format sometime in the next few weeks... it's gonna make the site scaled down as fuck, but why fill your eyes with meaningless bullshit??? ok, anyways, isn't it crazy how you can hardly know someone, but feel so strongly, and want to get to know that person better, and the more you talk or see that person the thoughts that run through your head are so confusing, but at the same time you can smile with every thought of the person, when you are with them, you never want to leave??? well, i think so... but... who knows what will happen, we'll see... i'm out, gonna add some stuff when i get back... check it... peace out...</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>11-02-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**i'm at home for the weekend, i got my car back today, now i'm chillin... lol... it's almost 3 in the morning, it's crazy, i miss home more now, but oh well... just thought i's drop a note to say hey... be back sunday... peace... also wish me luck!!! Theta Chi orientation week all this week... damn, i wonder what we'll do... </b></div> <bR> <div> <B>10-23-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**me again... long time right??? damn, life is weird now, been home the last 3 weekends...had a lot of fun...  but it's 4 hours away... i've been doing a lot of thinking... been soooo busy with fraternity stuff, school, and work... but i'm doing good... gotta pull my grades up more though. I go to court thursday for my speeding ticket... hopefully i'll still have my license when i leave... i'll wait and see... looked at apartments for next year... found a cool one, and i think nick and i are gonna try and get it together in july... i really hope we can... nick and i have been chillin a lot lately, i think he's straightening up better now... i hope so... he can do so well if he does... i miss him the most of everyone back home... but i guess that's cuz he's one of the few people i trust... i've done some stupid shit since i gt to college, but i'm straightening it out and cleaning up now... thank god... college is more hectic and harder then i thought... but i guess it's just a big change... i'm out peace</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>NEWEST ADDITIONS:</b></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id122.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="The Teens of Today, and the Fucked up So"><U><B>The Teens of Today, and the Fucked up Society they have to Endure</b></U></A><B> (ENGLISH ESSAY I HAD TO WRITE)</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>NEW PICTURES IN </b><A HREF="id6.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="PhOtOgRaPhY"><U><B>PhOtOgRaPhY</b></U></A><B> (located in college life section)</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>9-07-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**I'm sitting in the hall right now re-doing a lot of my page... I didn't sleep at all last night, mainly just chilled outside. but I couldn't handle being inside, cuz i got screwed over... oh well... fuck it. I auditioned for a part in a 20 min. short to day, I think I did good, I hope so atleast. </b></div> <bR> <div> <B>7-14-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**What up? Well I haven't listed what I added lately... but I have a new poem just added... and I've been so busy getting ready for school... damn, life is changing so much, so quickly... Anyways, I'll live... I'll miss everyone when I have to leave... but I love you all... Later</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <B>new poem: </b><A HREF="id121.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="what if"><U><B>what if</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>7-01-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>** new poem added, i just wrote it like 30 seconds ago... check it out... </b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <A HREF="id118.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="see you again"><U><B>see you again</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <B>6-30-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New pictures of Maggie up... check em... peace</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>6-25-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**new poem up check it... it's deep... but wonderful... peace</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <A HREF="id117.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="talking to satan"><U><B>talking to satan</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>6-24-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New poem added check it...</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <A HREF="id116.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="the kiss"><U><B>the kiss</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>6-23-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New poem up... inspiration comes from my life going to hell this past week, and the nightmares that haunt my sleep since monday... when will this madness end??? maybe when death falls upon me, or the earth reaches apocalyptic catastrophe...</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <A HREF="id115.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="nightmares fill the void"><U><B>nightmares fill the void</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <B>6-21-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>** new pics from the beach up... new videos from Wilmington up... unsuspecting people caught on tape... enjoy... peace...</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>6-06-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New poems added, as well as all my pictures from my senior trip to Arizona... check em... Peace out... Happiness has arrived again... now in time my heart will again mend... Love ya all! Peace</b></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id113.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="failing"><U><B>failing</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id112.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="waiting"><U><B>waiting</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-21-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New surf video up, it's tight... Staind CD tomorrow... yes, I'll be the first to have it... Peace!!!</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-20-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New Staind CD drops Tuesday... "Break the Cycle" I'll definitely be one of the first to get it... right before I go to take my english exam... gotta have something to listen to, right? </b></div> <bR> <div> <B>****New videos up... they are some phat surf ones I found on this surf site... check them out... Peace</b></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id9.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="ViDeO"><U><B>ViDeO</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-16-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**Funny how life works... I was going through my stuff today, and I found my notebook from just a month ago... when happiness was so strong, and my life seemed perfect... as hard as it was for me to read these poems, and type them up remembering when i wrote them... I had to post them... check it...</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <A HREF="id107.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="untitled"><U><B>untitled</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id108.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="only you"><U><B>only you</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id109.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="youll see"><U><B>you'll see</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id110.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="letter from the broken"><U><B>letter from the broken</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id111.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="more pain"><U><B>more pain</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-15-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**new qoute added... 4 new poems up... Tool Cd released today, unfortunatly till I get money I won't be getting it... DAMMIT!!! oh well... check the poems... peace</b></div> <bR> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <A HREF="id88.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="will end"><U><B>will end</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id89.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="you"><U><B>you</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id90.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="everything: your beauty, your smile, jus"><U><B>everything: your beauty, your smile, just a taste...</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id91.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="carved from the memory"><U><B>carved from the memory</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>**Astrology section up... it's got the outlook for may and june up... for all signs... check them...</b></div> <bR> <div> <B><This link's target cannot be found></b></div> <bR> <div> <B>*** I've been thinking a lot lately too... and I realized that you should never give up hope on what makes you happy, because afterall, what is life without hope?? nothing but a waste... hold onto the hope, and follow all your dreams, no matter how rediculous or incredibly stupid people tell you they are... cuz after all... whatever makes you hapy in life is all that matter... </b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**When 2 hearts unite as 1... Love will prevail...***</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>5-14-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**I was cleaning my room today and found my old poetry notebook, so I added 19 poems- some of my old ones, and then some i have written in the past week or so...  I could make it easy and tell you the new ones, but since they are true and full of emotion you'll have to figure it out... lol... check them out... Also as of today, I have a total of 54 poems up... I'll probably come across more tomorrow to add... anyways take a look at these...</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <A HREF="id69.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="so differentso alike"><U><B>so different-so alike</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id70.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="fear"><U><B>fear</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id71.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="lost found"><U><B>lost & found</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id72.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="she"><U><B>she</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id73.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="when i look at you"><U><B>when i look at you</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id74.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="must die"><U><B>must die</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id75.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="whats your reason"><U><B>what's your reason</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id76.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="need you"><U><B>need you</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id77.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="gldb"><U><B>gldb</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id78.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="what did i expect"><U><B>what did i expect</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id79.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="sent away"><U><B>sent away</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id80.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="my love, your hate"><U><B>my love, your hate</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id81.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="lost puppy"><U><B>lost puppy</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id82.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="committed"><U><B>committed</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id83.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="how does it feel"><U><B>how does it feel</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id84.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="lies"><U><B>lies</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id85.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="talk"><U><B>talk</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id86.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="my place in your hate"><U><B>my place in your hate</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id87.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="eyes of a childhood"><U><B>eyes of a childhood</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-12-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New pics and video up... check it!</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-9-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**Qoutes section up... check it: </b><A HREF="id66.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="QoUtEs"><U><B>QoUtEs</b></U></A></div> <bR> <div> <B>Staind- Break the Cycle  drops in 12 days... tool in 6... werd!!! </b></div> <bR> <div> <B>High School is history for me in 10 days... to all my friends who will be left attending school in Winston... I love you all, and I will miss you next year... more than you'll ever know!!! PEace and much Love!!!</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-4-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>**New poem added... check it:</b></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id65.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="inside what is held??"><U><B>inside- what is held??</b></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>18 days till Break the Cycle - Staind's new cd drops... pick it up... Tool's new release May 15th...</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>5-1-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> **Ok, only 21 days till the new Staind CD hits... it's gonna be phat... It's been awhile is only a small scratch at whats on it... go to the staind website to hear bits from other songs...</div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="http://www.staind.com" TARGET="_top" TITLE="http://www.staind.com"><U>STAIND</U></A></div> <bR> <div> I gotta say based on the lyrics I've read, I found my favorite song... check them:</div> <bR> <div> <B>Fade</b></div> <bR> <div> I try to breathe</div> <div> Memories overtaking me</div> <div> I try to face them but</div> <div> the thought is too</div> <div> Much to conceive</div> <bR> <div> I only know that I can change</div> <div> Everything else just stays the same</div> <div> So now I step out of the darkness</div> <div> That my life became 'cause</div> <bR> <div> I just needed someone to talk to </div> <div> You were just too busy with yourself</div> <div> You were never there for me to</div> <div> Express how I felt</div> <div> I just stuffed it down</div> <div> Now I'm older and I feel like</div> <div> I could let some of this anger fade</div> <div> But it seems the surface</div> <div> I am scratching</div> <div> Is the bed that I have made</div> <bR> <div> So where were you</div> <div> When all this I was going through</div> <div> You never took the time to ask me </div> <div> Just what you could do</div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>4-29-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> **New poem up, I wrote it last night in my state of silence... I guess that's a good way to describe me last night... I dunno... check it... peace</div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id64.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="feel the same"><U>feel the same</U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <div> Links section up...a</div> <bR> <div> <B>4-28-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> **Check these Lyrics... Peace</div> <bR> <div> <B><U>Away, Not Gone </U></b>by: Eden's Decent</div> <bR> <div> Why can’t I see outside * Through the fog and the depths of this cataclysmic time * Past all the forgotten dreams *And the wasteland this world seems * See past my face * The death and stale air * Take their place * The friends left behind * But not forgotten with time * Family of one * In heart, you’re not gone *CHORUS* We miss you so much *And will always love * Moving on without * In a better place, we have no doubt * Take care of them Lord * These ones we so adore * Take care of them Lord * These ones that you adore</div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>4-27-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> **I'm still working on adding everything... It should be done soon... I came across some lyrics I thought I'd post here... they are so true to what I am going through right now... People change so quickly and it's fucked up when they are too blind to know who their true friends are...</div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B><U>Eye Level</U></b></div> <bR> <div> Now we close our eyes to stop looking, </div> <div> to find out what's inside. </div> <div> Seeing things for not what they are </div> <div> and what they aren't supposed to be. </div> <div> And I realize that things will never be the same. </div> <div> These stupid voices are all wrong. </div> <div> I don't know why things are and why eye level? </div> <div> Dishonesty, envy, and greed is all that they see. </div> <div> I don't know why everybody turns their backs to me. </div> <div> Relationships they rearrange and change who we are. </div> <div> Always be yourself and just move on. </div> <div> Remember who you are and what you wanted to do.</div> <bR> <div> **Here's a song that kind of rings true to all the girls I've ever been interested in, they always seem to want to go through shit rather then give me a chance to treat them right... but fuck them...</div> <bR> <div> <B><U>Mixed Emotions</U></b></div> <bR> <div> I'm not mad, but sometimes I don't get it. </div> <div> You would rather be with someone that would treat you like shit. </div> <div> Just stop thinking about it, </div> <div> just stop thinking about it. </div> <div> Sometimes it's easier to just think about the good times, </div> <div> but you will say something that cuts me back down to size. </div> <div> Is this not what you wanted, </div> <div> is this not what you wanted? </div> <div> It seems like to me you are trying to back out of all these mixed emotions. </div> <div> Good guys all the time, we have to try harder. </div> <div> Bad guys never try, but seem to go farther. </div> <div> Relationships shouldn't be hard. </div> <div> You fall in love, </div> <div> you fall in love or just break it off. </div> <div> Why does it feel like I have to try?<FONT SIZE="4" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Sherwood" > </FONT></div> <bR> <bR> <div> **And another one that's just phat... and I love...</div> <bR> <div> <B><U>This Summer</U></b></div> <bR> <div> Waiting, </div> <div> anticipating the words that fall from your mouth. </div> <div> The clock ticks, a new day, </div> <div> the sunrise in your eyes passes on. </div> <div> A new light in my eyes reappears and falls into tears. </div> <div> Separate these thoughts of mine, </div> <div> relationships last just give it time. </div> <div> Sometimes we want what we can't have. </div> <div> This summer is coming </div> <div> and I wish I could take it back. </div> <div> I took a look in your eyes to see the stars shine, </div> <div> but in time people change and everything that was yours goes away. </div> <div> I took a look in your eyes and I saw the stars shine</div> <bR> <div> ****--All songs lyrics by Alli with an I and Emo/punk band out of Raleigh NC... check their webpage out here - </div> <div> <A HREF="http://www.geocities.com/alliwithani/index.html" TARGET="_top" TITLE="http://www.geocities.com/alliwithani/ind"><U>Alli with an I </U></A></div> <bR> <div> <B>4-26-01:</b></div> <bR> <div> **Totally re-did my layout... I figured it was time for a change, and this is a little more pleasing on the eyes... I also got rid of some stuff that was no longer necessary... Hopefully you'll like this better. Peace</div> </td> </tr></table></body>